Wednesday, May 27, 2009
a journey of my life...
My life had been a wonderful experience for the past 19 years. i study, i excel and i succeed. Life had been pretty much happiness that i find emptiness in it. when i look back on what i had been doing, i realized that i had done nothing except study and get good result. Strugling..yes... but more than that,no.... Nothing. None at all.
Until the day i entered KMB, i was re-introduced to Islam. With it came along my usrahmates, my family through all the pain and misery of IB in KMB. Eventhough we never know each other before this, the love that we had were undeniable, unexplainable. we had so much fun together. Sem 1 was the best.
After that, came Sem 2 offering us the responsibility and the position. All of us had our own responsibility to be used to uphold Islam. Everyone of us take the responsibility, if this was what should be done for Islam, then be it. I remembered being the one who bought the MPP form for my usrahmate and sending it back for her. But all the responsibilities slowly brought us apart. No more sharing stories, no more laughing together.
Thinking of those time and now, we no longer 'berlapang dada' to each other. Too preoccupied with works and the thought of upholding Islam, we forgot the very basic fundamental of da'wa, LOVE.
Allah is the best planner of all planner. Rancangan Allah sangat rapi dan indah.
When we were almost drown with the criticsm and problems, Allah lend us His strength. Together, with the help of the seniors, we manage to stand again.
As we can only hope, we hope for the best for this coming Sem 3. we know we can't beat the seniors in their da'wa but we'll do our best with what we are capable of. Allah tidak melihat kepada hasil tapi usaha yang dilakukan. kita hanya merancang namun rancangan Allah lah yang terbaik untuk kita.
To all my usrah mates (if u are reading this blog) i just want you to know that whatever that's gonna happen in this coming Sem 3, i will always be there for you all, insyaAllah. i miss the love we had for each other before the time of responsibility and position, i miss the carefree laughter and i know all of us are trying our best in being the old us ;loving each other because of Allah and i know we can do it, insyaAllah.
La tahzan, innallaha ma'ana. Remember this, our source of strength in the time of need.