::not good enough::

It's been a while,
feels like a robot doing things i should do,
yes, knowing fully why i do it,
but just knowing is not good enough,
need to really understand it,
cause' knowing will not power you up forever,
cause' the mind will create other justifications,
stopping you from doing it,
but understanding will,
indeed with His will; inshaAllah

* * *

It's nice.
He sent me someone,
 to show me that the world is not as bad.
He sent me guidance and love.
Things i missed the most.
All this while in this new land.
Sharing stories and experiences.
Now i know, and i am convinced